losing water
Sunday, July 29, 2007
the end of july approaches
one of the worst days my stomach has ever felt
has passed
friday nite and sat were utter hell
constantly felt bloated with gases
hitting the loo so often
diarhoea
contracted mild fever on friday
subsided after taking some panadols
sat doing guard duty
sibei zonked out
in the morning and afternoon
no energy
no appetite to eat
thanks to the guys for helping to cover for some of the times i was sitting at the loo
commando lo had some stomach problems
too
SFI food?
i think cannot make it lar
have been eatign this crap for so long
have no choice lar
but the main culprit i suspect
is the lexus biscuit i ate on friday morning
it tasted funni
i thought it just lao hong.....
but i should have known better
must have been spoilt
and there u have it
free water loss
plus total energy zapation
plus siansation
lesson?
if it taste funni
DONT EAT IT
it probably is rotten
DISCARD IMMEDIATELY
dont understimate
2 small biscuits
august approaches
6 months plus and it will be all over
psp finally can play id
credit to wee wee
WMMT3 is out
its darn fun to play
but it hurts my wallet even more than WMMT2
2 dollars to start , 2 dollars to continue
URGH
last time 10 bucks can last me a long time
now that lets me play 5 games instead of 9 ( wmmt2 2 dollars to start, 1 dollar to continue)
....................
the price u pay for chasing something u like
11:42:00 PM
Frustration
Sunday, July 22, 2007
argh so many things i want to rant about
so little paitience in the blogger's mind to type
taken from wikipedia
Frustration is an
emotion that occurs in situations where one is blocked from reaching a personal
goal. The more important the goal, the greater the frustration. It is comparable to
anger.
constantly feeling frustrated this days
its as if all that anger that lies deep within is being awakened
by triggers
and gushes foward
threatening explosion
but somehow urs truly has to swallow it all down
to prevent people from getting hurt
its not just in the physical sense u noe
sometimes i dont say anithing
cos i dont want to bruise peoples egos
once bruised
it takes a long time to heal doesnt it
its sad
but humans easily show their dark tendencies more easily
u seldom compliment people
but race to rant bout others
dont u feel sian
when u try to talk to people
but then
u dont realli noe what to say to them
so u say something random and u hope u can start a conversation
more often than not
u just get a few one line sentences
and then silence......
its like not everyone is blessed with the ability to crack jokes or
effortlessly start chatting
unlike social butterflies
my feet is darn erratic
sometimes it feels better
other times it flares up
its damn fucked up feeling u noe
more than 2 months already
applying so much cream
trying to get it to heal
WHY WONT IT HEAL
^&*()_bought one more book to read today
also the mandatory lime magazine
dont have the mental stamina to read books though
never had the interest of reading books in the first place
so why am i reading it
cos i hope it will help me in some way
at least keep my brain from
totally rotting away
before i forget
hope u guys had a good racial harmony day on sat
society is darn fragile already
lets keep it held togethe no matter how loose it may be
11:46:00 PM
one month loads of crap happened
Friday, July 13, 2007
sorry for the lack of updates
been rather lazy and feeling down to blog
dont have to the mood to pent down all these frustration s
weekends are now spent at ndp rehearsals
burning sat
leaving sunday and monday as rest days
friday is half day as we have to go to marina to recce the area
my fitness level is dropping
just 2 weeks ago
almost blacked out during a parade
i dont know why
darn scary
ur vision total blurs out
u lose ur hearing
for a while i was totally blind
seeing a see of white
lack of sleep?
not enough water?
beret too tight?
maybe
i'll rem never to look down for even a moment during a parade
and to drink enough water
all through my entire ns life so far
have been plagued with headgear problems
beret either too small or too big ( new one)
have to adjust here and there
foot rot is gradually getting better at last
after 2 plus months
life in camp is okay
rather low key
but too much free time
leads people to do crazy things
or go into mood swings
the issue of how much to relax is coming up time and time again
lao jiao vs xin jiao issue never seperates itself from ns
personally i hate the restrictions imposed
but grudingly accept orders
others defy more openly
which approach works?
imo
quietly accepting orders without question seems ideal
but strains ur heart alot
u feel damn buay song
esp when others get to rant and not only rant
but openly refuse to do work or rather just wait one corner
the issue is some people have to cover for other peoples laziness
the question is who?
must it be the same people?
is this fair?
wait?
how bout if everyone defied orders?
what will happen?
theres a lot of pent up frustration that im trying to get rid off
WITHOUT hurting others feelings in the process
u noe how easy it is to shoot off ur mouth when ure tired and pissed off
other updates
caught transformers with some of the platoonmates
nice action and graphics
though ive largely forgotten alot bout whose who and what they are good at
psp
got some new games to finally work
after messing around so much with the firmware
credits to xiao wei da
now can play burnout dominator
also got the very first final fantasy
just today tried playing audition
total noobness
in camp played zhangyan's psp cos it got initial d
thanks a lot
ive always wanted to play initial d street stage
but it doesnt seem to work on mine
and ive must have deleted the torrent
got to go find it all over again
uni stuff
received acceptance from uwa
for academic term staring next july
now im waiting to see if the other uni will reply
i want to catch harry potter soon
hope the crowds are gone by then
go to go catch some sleep
tml is going to be another long day
11:27:00 PM
